life is a roller-coaster

Sunday, October 12, 2008 @ 8:51 AM

THAT'S IT!

I'M SENDING AN E-MAIL!

@ 8:35 AM

THS IS KILLING ME!

Since the day I found out Issa is blogging for The One Love, hope sprang up to me. I could talk about all the thoughts that keep running in mind that does not always reach to anyone but me. I could make friends from a simple blog post in a website that is slowly gaining attention. And most importantly, I could help with just a click away.

Just then, this huge stop sign halted my brain from wandering. What if I make a huge ass of myself out there? What if don’t make sense? What if people don’t read what I post? What if people didn’t care? What if…?

All these “what ifs?” kept circling around me and eventually, I ended up having a headache from thinking. I couldn’t think straight.

I didn’t blog to much in the past but with inspiration from my friends, I became a blogger. I remembered the time my Dad bought a DSL and I started to learn so many things from the internet. I made numerous accounts, stalked my crushes and researched on everything I wanted to know. I typed like this, “aaah!! this is so cute!!!... aahhh!! haaaay…” and I thought, “tHiS wAs CuTE!!!”.

Currently, I spot a new blogger who is pretty much familiar, and now I could feel the hope and excitement tingling again.

I don't even think I deserve to be one because my thoughts never connect with one another and it takes time for me to form a simple explanation. What is wrong with me?!

My fingers are forcing me to type a new email for Cassie but something still stops me. What if I send it and I get a reply of either yes or no? What if Cassie says yes and what would my first post be? What would the people think? What would they say?

There goes the ‘what ifs’ again.

It’s nearly midnight and I have to sleep. I haven’t even prepared my things for Swimming class. I don’t know what to do. I’m obviously acting desperate and childish. I just want to make a decision with a simple YES or NO.

Friday, October 10, 2008 @ 9:16 AM

..And one more thing

I just want to ask if I am worthy to be a TOL blogger.
I read the blogs but don't really comment on them.

The One Love site

@ 9:02 AM

Twi-Oh-Light!

I am supposed to be writing a very decent blog post right now (that does not include the subject I am writing now) but after watching the Twilight trailer and TC5’s new video diary, time had passed so fast.

I am ashamed to be saying that I can’t wait for the movie to premiere. I blame the school, the library, the internet, and my friends for being such hardcore fanatics, who made my innocent mind, act up weirdly through their viruses that scattered throughout the world.

At first, I didn’t really give in much attention to it after finishing it because in my opinion, it was just a regular novel with romance that made my mind wander with all these love stuff. Honestly, it was the very first book I’ve read, having more than 150 pages and an uninteresting book cover.

Jayne suggested it to me when she found out I’ve read so many books from an application in Facebook, and since I really judge a book by its cover, I forced myself to read it because I trust her word. Fortunately, it worked out. Until now, I’m reading books with ugly covers but great stories. Thank you, Jayne.

When I found out that my thoughts of having Twilight as a movie have come true, I felt ecstatic. It’s the first time I’m going to watch a movie that is based from a novel I’ve read. I made sure I kept myself updated from all Twilight-related news and prayed that Gaspard Ulliel would be Edward.

(So now I only have 25 minutes to finish this up before I head off to fix my things for tomorrow and sleep tightly. Fridays have never been the same again – I can’t feel the words T.G.I.F.)

After some weeks, I grew tired and sick of watching all the interviews and videos from the set. I visit Meyer’s site and click open the Twilight thread on the TC5 Boards whenever I’m in the mood. I then promised myself I won’t be stalking much from it anymore.

Sophomore year started, my classmates kept gushing about their summer flings and experiences, their unending love for the Jonas Brothers, and their new addiction to Twilight.

(So here, I’ve spent ten minutes on watching Christian’s sorry video to Ben and posting it somewhere. I was about to comment on the thread but I honestly just loled – 12 more minutes.)

Months passed, everyone bragged their collection of the Twilight Saga books and merchandises; cried, laughed and got mad at the ending of Breaking Dawn; and controlled their excitement on the days left before the movie premieres.

(Shit, two minutes! – I obviously can’t be on time since I’m opening countless numbers of windows by the second)

And now, I’m partially part of it but I’m still keeping my promise. I don’t update myself much but my friends do it for me voluntarily. One more month and Tasha’s addiction to Robert Pattinson and Kristel’s love for Steven Strait, whom she considers as Jacob Black, would soon increase (or decrease).

And here is my current crush since I'm watching "Zoom" with my sister right now. Obviously, my crushing at him would soon vanish no time.

(Wait, I found out something. That's why he's so familiar!
He's the dude from "It's a Boy-Girl Thing")

That's like the only decent picture I found of him.
And it's 12:09am already! Aaaaaah!

preface

Everything I state in this page are words of truth and reality. I am not a perfect person. I know that I have been given life to see how the world works and revolves. At this point of my life, I say that I understand life in ways that move like a roller coaster. That is a fact. I am Janella and this is how it flows in my world.

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