life is a roller-coaster

Sunday, August 31, 2008 @ 2:23 AM

CFOB Mixtape

I'm so damn happy right now!
After 989846528 times of trying to download the whole album, I finally got it!
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

I'm enjoying everything so far especially 'I Kissed A Boy' by Cobra Starship.

Loling so hard at 'We Believe in (Barack Obama)'

Wednesday, August 27, 2008 @ 5:59 AM

Realizations.

I just finished reading “Tuesdays with Morrie” by Mitch Albom two hours ago and a lot of realizations came to my mind.

One of the quotes in the book says that we spend too much time on distractions and less important things, which I believe is 110% true, and another one that the culture today lives on material things and being conscious everywhere.

I think both of those quotes really made a big impact on me and the way on how I live my life right now. I’m currently belonging to groups I’m new in and I can’t be myself every time we’re gathered together because I don’t want to be labeled as makapal ang mukha (I honestly have no idea what’s the English term for that – I guess, it’s thick face). When it comes to being myself, I scream a lot and do stupid things, which I guess are overrated.

There are times I plan to do things that I don’t like and people would like, but it’s a good thing that I can control myself. I’ve seen a lot of people lie about themselves and I don’t want to end up weeping even more.

Usually, when it comes to being a newbie, I shut my mouth and sit in the corner, and observe everyone and the tradition they do each meeting. When I get to know each already, that’s the time I slowly phase out to being myself.

When a lot of people are involved in a topic that seems interesting or not, and I’m completely of unaware of, I either shut my mouth and absorb the facts I see, or make a research of it and continuing doing it, if it satisfies me. At times, I do both but on separate days.

I still do that when I have time but sometimes, I stop. I stop because I ask myself, why am I doing this? Am I just doing this to impress others?, I ask that a lot and I’m guessing it’s pretty much true.

Since I read the book, it made my brain wander. When you’re not part of something socially, will you die? When you’re not part of it, are you called dumb and not cool? On what I see now, that’s the problem with the youth today. Because of technology, everything changes.

I won’t bring up details on that anymore because eventually, I know I’ll be talking about someone I completely hate to death.

Thursday, August 21, 2008 @ 4:43 AM

Update, I guess.

Is it me or Blogspot changed it's Dashboard page?

Grr, Yahoo! Mail won't let me in for no reason and it's killing me. I want to activate my Mibba account right this instant! But don't worry Blogspot, I won't abandon you.

There are things I want but I know I can't have.
I wanna talk more but it's a school night.

Tsk, I'm starting to get lazy. Holy.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @ 6:01 AM

Bleh.

"No. It should be a Friday or a Saturday. We don't go out during the weekdays and so should you. We need to have discipline in this house. When it's a school day, it's only for school."

Tuesday, August 12, 2008 @ 5:02 AM

OMG

This day has been so unexpected.

We FINALLY got successful in Cooking. Thank God! AND we got things right already! Yeah!

AND just before we start to eat, Bea was stirring the gravy for our mashed potatoes. She called me and asked for a favor, "Bane, favor. Pakuha ng brown na paper bag sa tabi ng chair ko na may blue thingy-thingy?

(Can you please get the brown paper bag beside my chair with the blue thingy-thingy?)"

When I took it in the classroom, the blue cellophane was.. how do I say it? Picture this: half of it was already out of the paper bag (?). Anyway, I slightly pulled it out because of curiosity. I found something square, which I assumed was a book, wrapped in the same cellophane. What is she planning?, I thought.

While we ate, Bea suddenly cheered, "Baneeeeeeeeeeee, for you! and placed the paper bag beside me. I was honestly shocked because I feel uncomfortable receiving gifts. "Seryoso ka? (Seriously?)", It was all I could say at the moment. "Promise."

I came back to the classroom, exhausted from the chaos that happened in Cooking, and slowly took out what's wrapped inside the bag.

When the object inside was revealed, I literally screamed including everyone beside me.

I was guessing it was her copy, which she and her Mom had done reading, but she told me it was a new copy she bought yesterday. She even asked me if I wanted to her to show her own copy for proof.

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. Bea and I only met during the start of the school year and I can't believe she did that. I even confessed to her that I thought she was rude before but she just laughed about it.

OMG, Bea. I hate you so much. You almost killed me. I love you, rich girl!

Saturday, August 9, 2008 @ 1:06 AM

SATURDAY!

I’m so happy right now! No more tests, no more studying and the best of all A WEEKEND WITHOUT BRAIN USAGE! And take note, it’s a Saturday, the last day of tests.

I’ll be flushing out every word, every formula and every name I’ve kept for the week. I’ll be focusing on just listening to music. Sweet, sweet freedom! You have no idea how I’m so ecstatic that the exams are over and we actually got dismissed at 9am! Damn, damn, damn!

So, anyway, everyone and I mean EVERYONE went out to the mall, Trinoma exactly. Since the place open, it’s been a favorite spot to all SHSians. We planned on going there, too, but we were totally out of cash and we’re sure our parents won’t allow us.

BUT next week, we’ll be having three consecutive days of camera clicking! If you’re here, everyone LOVES the camera. We’ll be having our outreach on Thursday, where we’ll be briefed about building a house through Gawad Kalinga. We’ll be watching Florante at Laura the next day in the AFP Theater and we’re sure to see other sophomores from various schools like the time we watched Ibong Adarna.

And on Saturday, my birthday party! I even made a post about it but it wasn't done:

I'm in a serious state of shock right now from doing something out of my reach.
I thought a lot before doing this but I just did it.
Doing this should be making me happy but after doing so, I'm in a span of nervousness.

I don't why why I'm still making this long and I know I should've just said it in the first line.
Why am I feeling this? This is so.. sureal.

Okay, I think this part is appropriate for this thing: Omigad. Here it goes.
I invited thirty-one people to my birthday party.

So, what are you feeling now? Confused or just the same?

I did that through Multiply by nervously posting out e-invites in my friends's Guestbooks.

Anyway, doing this was so out of the ordinary. All I know is when you invite tons of people to an event, it's basically a major event that people would like to be in BUT my birthday...
Well, for me, it's MAJOR because, duh, it's the day when I was born and the day my family started loving me. For my friends and family, in my point of view, is just like a gimmick in a mall or even a day of house-hopping.

It's still exam week (well, I'm typing this in the laptop without the net, if you're wondering) and I'm already freaking out on this. The house.. There's nothing pretty about our house, to be honest. I wonder how 31 people, if ever, would fit in our sort-of narrow house! Having five adults crowd in the living room makes me feel the place is small already. Damn it. I'm still shocked.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008 @ 5:57 AM

It's cold and the rain hasn't stop pouring. The screeching voices of my sisters from their karaoke are echoing in the whole house and they're making the rain worse.
My singaw (I can't seem to find the English for it. It's the white wound in your gum. Get the picture?) is very disturbing and I'm making a quick note before I head off to sleep.

I feel the need to get mad at this thing because when I don't, I won't have the same feeling I have right now.
Anyway, back to what I was saying.. Ehem.

I'm sorry I don't have the money to buy Breaking Dawn. I'm sorry I can't feel what you feel about the book. I'm sorry I'm not a die-hard fanatic of Twilight but I do like the book. I'm sorry I can't spill this out on your face because I hate being mean. I'm sorry to say that I know what the word FICTION means.

I know how you feel about liking and idolizing something that you want to get your hands on every second. I know it because I used to be what you are right now but aren't we in the right age now?

The installments to Meyer's best-selling novel, Twilight, were big hits to all except for the last book, which I've been seeing and hearing now. I can see that you're mad because you're not satisfied with how the book ends. I know you're sobbing all throughout because of that book BUT for goodness' sake, it's NOT real. It's FICTICIOUS. The whole thing was IMAGINED by Meyer's mind. It's NOT TRUE. Do you want me to add more words that sums up to the word FICTION?

If ever I get the chance to read that book, I'm not sure what I'll be feeling but I still have self-control. I guess I'll be mad to whatever's going to happen but I'll not be releasing my anger to everyone and everywhere. I've read a lot, which had endings I didn't like, but did I tear up like Hulk because of it?

The word YOU I'm addressing to isn't only for one person but for other people who I'm describing as now.

I've been telling this for millions of times already! Edward and Jacob, your husband/s, and Bella, your archenemy, are NOT real.
Go screw with them with your minds but please remember, they're out of reality, okay?

Saturday, August 2, 2008 @ 8:16 AM

Pinoy Gossip Girl

So I've seen, the Pinoy GG thing has spread throughout all the GG viewers.

All I know the status of it is still a RUMOR.
Obviously, everyone's furious.

There are TONS of reasons why GG shouldn't push through.

1. The cast sucks

The said final cast are all wonderful and talented actors but with the appeal or should I say "sex" appeal the book describes on the characters don't match their looks. For KC, she's good-looking but she's been a role model to the youth and would people like to see her making out and drinking with strangers? She has a reputation.

2. Ain't NO originality.

Since ABS-CBN aired Meteor Garden in the waves, everyone became fond of watching foreign shows. Even GMA did it. It's great to see how the progress of its actors go up but continuously watching them and seeing how the rate of the desire for Filipino shows go low, it sickens me. I am aware that people adore Asian shows because the actors are great and good-looking, and the flow of their plot tends the audience to crave for more. But when I saw and heard that ABS is doing their own version of Ugly Betty or Betty La Fea and ABC made Pinoy Idol, I died.

From what I saw, the show originally came from a Latin country or something, so USA made their own, which obviously was a hit not only in the USA but around the globe, too.

Look at what happened to the first winner of Pinoy Idol. She became news after her win but when months passed, she was no longer known. I see Pinoy Idol every time my parents watch it and the contestants aren't great or interesting even if Ogie Alcasid is one of the judges.

For me, the American media knows what they're doing.

3. Clothes don't match.

The clothes being wore in the real GG are made and best suited for the seasons present in the US. They have winter and we don't. They mostly wear thick clothes to warm them but in here, we're already warmed even if we're naked.

4. Human Mating = Population Growth

The story is based on teens doing mating sessions, drinking and doing their best to stay top in their social status. (That's the reason why I stopped watching the show) The youth today is disgusting. Socialization is the their top priority and they'll do everything to impress everyone. The country is suffering from the rapid population growth and majority of its cause are teens. The government today is elaborating on that issue and do you want to stress more on that because the show is exposing too much stuff?

Whether using birth-control pills and condoms or plainly stopping yourself from liking people too much, just STOP DOING IT.

Okay, I’m done.

preface

Everything I state in this page are words of truth and reality. I am not a perfect person. I know that I have been given life to see how the world works and revolves. At this point of my life, I say that I understand life in ways that move like a roller coaster. That is a fact. I am Janella and this is how it flows in my world.

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